Meant to Be
Thoughts are meant for thinking
Songs are meant for singing.
Books are meant to read,
Leaders are meant to lead.
Music is meant to be played,
Things meant to be made.
Stories meant to be told,
Teachers meant to scold.
Writers meant to write,
Fighters meant to fight.
Everything has a place,
In this great big space.
So now, my darling, you see,
That you were meant to be.
-Katie Ann Huy
I know this seems like just a simple poem, but it has so much meaning to it. This short, shallow poem, is so deep when you hear the story behind it.
Learning to be myself is a lot harder than it used to be. I’m trying to be strong, and I’m trying to do what is right. I’m trying to hold on to my beliefs and convictions. I’m trying hard to stay to myself. It’s not easy, and it’s not fun. I just want to give up.
But I want to be different.
I want to be a different highschooler. I want to be a different teenager. I want to be a different homeschooler. I want to be a different pastor’s daughter.I want to be a different christian. I want to be a different follower. I want to be a different girl.
I always have. I remember watching people at church go from junior high, to high school, and into life. I remember they all did the same things; made the same mistakes.
“I want to be different.” I remember saying as a ten year old.
My ambitions haven’t changed, my goals haven’t changed, my convictions haven’t changed. What is the difference now?
He puts me to the test. “Do you really believe this? Do you really want this? Is this really what you feel is right?” He asks me. “Yes.” “Then prove it.”
“God does what it takes to get you on your knees. If it means breaking your legs, he’ll do so.” -My Journal
When you think you have it together, God tears it apart. When you feel good, and you’ve made yourself fit in, He ruins it. Why? Because we are not called to live like others. Because as Christians we are not called to be comfortable.
“If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.” John 15:18-19
We are not promised an easy life. In fact, we are promised the exact opposite. God has called us into a life that is vigorous, a life that is hard, a life that is disgraced in this world, a life that is not fun. But in that life we have serenity, we have joy, we have peace, we have strength.
“We are more than conquerors through Christ. We have overcome this world, this life. We will not bow to sin or by shame, we are defiant in his name!”
-Rend Collective (More than Conquerors)
We have what no other life has. We have something different.
Though being different is hard, and makes you feel obsolete, it’s all His will.
While being different feels awkward and I just want to give in, I know God has bigger plans for me. I know God has given me a place, and though I feel like I don’t get to have any fun, I know that He is in control and I’m part of something greater. While doing what every typical teenage girl does sounds fun, when I try it, I hate it. I know it’s not my place. Everyday I have to remind myself as I start move my bangs to cover my blemishes. “Don’t hide.” I say and pin them back.
God loves for who we are. We are meant to be stupid, we are meant to be annoying, we are meant to make mistakes, we are meant to be weird. We all have a place. We are meant to be.
-Katie Ann Huy